Ahhhh, Timing

I have been exchanging emails with some old friends and trying to plan a girls weekend. So, as we were discussing dates and destinations, one of my friends drops the bomb that she is expecting #2 and is due ONE.DAY.BEFORE.ME. So a million thoughts start racing through my mind. I feel bad for not telling her I am pregnant. She had sort of been following our journey. She was more in tune with some cycles and not others and this one she wasn't....so I just hadn't filled her in yet. So, I felt kinda bad that she shared and I didn't. And then I immediately rationalized that 8 weeks was kind of early anyhow and everyone has their own idea of when they want to share. Then I got all excited that I could actually have a pal on the same timeline and we could compare symptoms and doctor's appointments and all. Then I got all pissy because she was so stinking adorable with her first and I imagined myself as a whale next to her as I carry twins. And then my heart temporarily stopped (and I wanted my whale thought back) as I considered the possibility of something going wrong with my pregnancy and hers continuing. I just know that I will forever be scarred by that child's birthdate. But I am going to try and erase that last thought from my brain for now and instead continue to dream of our girls getaway weekend in a few months and both of us with our baby bumps.